Tash Fett [Game Day 34]
Master has suddenly completely altered plans. This is very not like him. He likes plans and routines. We were supposed to leave after breakfast but then we left last night. I was busy making security arrangements and we suddenly lifted off. Most odd.
Tash Fett [Game Day 34.5]
Master was not at breakfast and this is very unusual. I went to speak with master and he. Well he spoke to me as if he could no longer trust me. This. This hurt me very bad. He had also locked his door for the first time, had his heavy armor and full on blaster rife waiting to talk with me. I am rather unsure of what this bodes for my or anyone else’s future.
Tash Fett [Game Day 36] (spelling errors intentional)
The new ships councilor visited me today. He seemed like a nice enough guy. Asked several questions but not in the usual provoking way most do. I enjoyed our conversation. He recommended that I reppport to master how I felt aboutt his odd behavior and how worried and concearned I was. I took his advice and went to seee master. I again hoped master would honor our new arrangement and dissolve our aprentiship. I think I forgot a step. Anyway he again refused. I did not care and wished to tell him of my proposal. Before i could he told me to get out. I wanted to yelll and scream at him but I dared not. IHow can I forget all the beatings and punishment I endured for my childhood insolence when I dared defy my masters. I am a good obedient girl, I will stay away.
Tash Fett [Game Day 37]
I have forgotten to write about the new agreements that master and I had discussed before we left Nar Shaddaa. That we would be terminating our old master/apprentice one and entering into a new partnership. At first I must confess to being a bit confused as all I have understood my entire life since a nanny droid changed my dippers was the first. But The more I thought about it and the implications and just the, well freedom! The FREEDOM! The more I got excited. I was so very disheartened when master refused to change our contract a few days ago.
Tash Fett [Game Day 37.5]
Today my mother decided to attempt to interact with me. She is rather clueless in many things but I have taken it upon myself to try and help educate the both of us on how to be family. I do believe she means well but she is rather cowardly in her approach.
Tash Fett [Game Day 41]
I slept with my mother last night for the first time.
She had too much of her wine and I had too much of my scotch.
The holo was quite boring and I awoke to her drool running down my shoulder.
Sorry all you pervert boys who enjoy reading my private journal but that was it!
Tash Fett [Game Day 51]
It was late at night but we arrived in the Tattooine system where master Gin’s estate is. I figured we would land, get some sleep and have some sort of meeting in the morning after breakfast.
I could not have been more wrong.
I am not sure how to write this. Let me start by beginning with what I have been planning to say since it sunk in that I could have freedom to choose and do what I want: Ana was a fun frivolous adventure into flaky adolescent love that was never bound to go anywhere. She made me aware of what I really need in a relationship. Someone who’s absolutely trust I can rely upon no matter the circumstances. Someone with which I share the utmost respect. Someone who’s absolute loyalty is the backbone of the relationship. Someone who I know will always have my back and they know I will always have theirs. Will you marry me Gin.
But that did not happen. I walked onto a cargo deck along with the crew ready to defend my master from all threats and was instead met by my master and the combat droids I had personally been training and told to surrender my weapons. Gin told some wonderful speeches. I practically pleaded with him to void our contract. I so desperately wanted to tell him how I felt but he refused. I struggled but as his apprentice I did finally obey. To be taken away and caged as I grew up.
Tash Fett [Game Day 53]
Yesterday the crew, myself and my mother where exonerated from the mole-hunt. I was taught to turn pain, hurt, anguish and any other weak emotions into rage and anger to kill the enemy. I am having a very difficult time with this. I refuse to speak to Gin about this. My mother is rather useless in these matters. Of all people perhaps Ket may have some insight.
At least I will have a quiet breakfast with my plants on the ship…