Note: This is a secured journal entry.
Tash Fett [Game Day 60]
I took several days holiday where I met with the Jedi Ben. He seemed a bit apprehensive of me but I believe I won him over that I wanted to be friends. He knew of my father and was able to tell me a few things about him. It was nice to have any information no matter how tragic about him, Ben told me that the Empire manipulated him into doing bad things and that my father was dead. This makes me want to help the rebellion even more and to overthrow the Empire.
Ben also told me that I should not consider clones my siblings. But that I do have a brother Boba Fett. Gin seems to trust this Jedi so I will believe him. I feel better about having killed those stormtroopers now. I do hope that someday I will meet my brother.
While on holiday I visited many interesting scenic sites and even painted a picture as was Ket’s recommendation. Oh, I have used my growing social skills to make peace with him and he seems rather congenial now.
Gin seemed very distraught after reading my journal and that I had come to the obvious conclusion that we should get married. What was frustrating though was that I accepted his rejection without any hysteria or theatrics which I have seen people have in the holos. I asked and gave reasoning why and he said no. End of discussion. I suppose if had been based on romance my reaction would have been quite different, had I proposed to Ana and she rejected me, which would have been far far worse than her just rejecting dating me I would have been devastated even worse than I was. Gin had great difficulty accepting my acceptance of his rejection and even called my mother in to tag team me.
I had a difficult time retaining my polite composure as the idea that the two of them were trying to explain love and romance to me was rather absurd.
As Gin pointed out both of them are “married to their work.” I do not believe either of them has ever had a true romantic relation from my observations. As such romantic advice from either of them is subject to much doubt as to its validity or usefulness.
Mother did inform me that she had been married. Coming from her I must feel sorry for them, I believe the word is “Marks.” The fact that someone she dated stole her genetic material and fled from her only adds to my conclusion that mother is not someone to get relationship advice from. I still cannot believe she tried throwing me to a Wookie since we could not communicate and it has been proven that communication is essential to every relationship, especially romance.
As someone who was raised to be “married to their work,” I have been endeavoring to break this habit and experience and enjoy life. I believe this will help me in finding a mutual romantic relationship.
We are currently on our way to Corulag where we will be getting a major ship refit. Hopefully we will be there several weeks and I will have the opportunity to find someone.