Note: This is NOT a secured journal entry.
Tash Fett [Game Day 75]
The past ten days have been very uncomfortable. My time with Feya was not what I had hoped at all. We did not become friends and nothing romantic or sexual ever occurred. Even I got tired of sleeping on the floor in my own room for over a week. She was a good and seemingly loyal employee and I will give her that credit. She did surprise me greatly at the end when she gave me back her wedding ring. I had told her to keep it or that I would buy it back from her at full price but she just gave it to me. I guess she must have noticed how much I liked it and wanted to part on good terms. I will certainly remember this kind act if our paths cross again.
Gin has been acting even more aloof than usual even for him. He flat out disappeared after breakfast on Corulag the day after his date with mother. I even bought him a plastic plant just before we left Corulag as way of apology if I had upset him, I know he would not tend a real one, but he appeared to have immediately vaporized it with his blaster. I have not spoken to him since. I have been getting a stronger and stronger feeling that he does not approve of the independent young woman I am becoming which saddens me.
I have been trying to spend time with mother so we can further get to know each other. I had to push a bit but she did not complain and seems far more comfortable now. I will take what wins I can.
Tomorrow we will be entering the Kamino system. Supposedly where I was created and escaped from. I feel a growing knot in my stomach as we get closer. I would be just fine never going back to that place and remembering how I grew up or what I did to escape.